A translation of her blog entry for anyone that in interested in reading through her rant :-
http://himekoha.livedoor.blog/archives/11211723.html
Hello everyone,
I heard everyone clamouring for me to return to blogging, so here's the reopened blog for you guys.
My Twitter will be updated as usual, but any essay length posting will be done here.
What I will be jotting down will be basically some small talks and random chats. Perhaps even some wild rants if I'm in the mood LOL.
Here's a thanks in advance for all you guys here.
Anyway, I had a appointment at the hospital today and been up since 6 am.
Been lazing around in my room ever since I got back when I got an urge to talk to everybody.
I don't think I'll get much of an audience, if any at all, with this being a sudden weekday daytime broadcast without any prior announcement . Imagine the surprise when lots of you guys turn up.
Some of you may have been using your lunch hour to attend to me, others might have been goofing off at work for me. You have my gratitude in any case.
And during this broadcast , I cried. In return, I've receive a lot of direct message of concern.
Why did I cry ? The reason is quite simple.
I'm extremely touched by everybody's kind comment LOL.
To tell the truth, I've got into a quarrel with some people close to me after returning from the hospital. All because of the nature of my previous job. (You know, the AV stuffs)
To speak frankly, I've become numb to anyone deriding my decision to enter AV.
Because of my choice to do AV, a lot of my friends have distanced themselves from me. My family had also voiced their objection very vocally.
But as mentioned before, no matter the opposition and what others say about me, I can just take things and move on quietly.
Though today I have no idea what got over me, I am not my usual self and bite back at the other parties. Leaving them fuming.
Now that I've cool off,
I've come to understand how I manage to weather everything and throw them off in the past. It was all thanks to all my fans during my Koharu era. They were truly my saviours.
The direct messaging and tweetcasting function had really shorten the distant and allow me to feel everyone's kindness everyday if I want.
So those tears are not of hatred nor from sorrow, everybody can rest easy there.
Now whenever I'm feeling down, I can start a broadcast , feel everybody's usual tenderness and I'll be right as rain.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to get there, but you'll understand, right ?
Now I'm feeling real good every time thinking about that event I've been planning all along.
Since I figure that I will be seeing everybody in person then.
Said event have nothing to do with my previous agency by the way.
Now thinking how I've essentially cried out loud, I'm too embarrassed to kept any recording of that broadcast . LOL
But that is how things are.
Sorry about any incident that I've caused.
Now it's time to retire for the day.
Thanks for the effort reading through all these.
Good Night.
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My thoughts after reading the entry is that, this is extremely sad if this is how she truly find comfort and solace there, from people she never actually meet and know. Still basking in her former glory and living in a dream.