Of this already weeks, but this is the correct translation, according to my sensei
“Today was my birthday. I don’t like birthdays very much or to be congratulated by so many people. Nevertheless I was happy from the bottom of my heart. To be able to have another live event like this, with everyone’s happy words, expressions, feelings, dirty stuff (cheeky crude comments probably), I fucking loved it all.
I used to be in a genre called Junior Idol, I became like a robot and I was killing my emotions. I know that the general public are against it and the world cannot accept it.
But I don’t want my fans to be concerned about me for that reason, or say I am unpopular because of it. I don’t care about being compared to others, and I don’t think I’m cute anyway.
Still I do not regret my past and do not want to hide it, but it seems that everyone is arbitrarily concerned with the past of other people.
People who can’t properly live their own lives, they see a person weaker than themselves and think “that person is worse than me”, and it makes them feel better. For that kind of person, I am shit and useless. I live my life thinking, “Honestly I want to die, really die, absolutely going to die! Will die!”. It’s a secret you know, lol.
In this small world we call life, I’m like the shit that no-one can accept, the shit that no-one wants to accept. Nevertheless to the people who have accepted me, I fucking love each and every one of you. Add to that the recent major debut (King Records release) – it’s too amazing.
When I write this kind of thing, there is an “idol feeling”, a sense of cleanliness. I hate that so I don’t write very often. But my emotions were on the verge of an explosion so I wrote this.
To be honest, although I don’t want to be forgotten I am worried that I surely will be forgotten and it’s scary. To be forgotten is the same as dying.
Anyway, I’m 16 now and more than ever, the number of people who are thinking about me and getting involved is increasing, so I’m happy. So to repay you all (for your support) I will live as best as I can. Thank you.”