I know I might be shots fired even thought I hate to say this is the true. Brainwashing, volunteer/consent, contract obligation, money, fame, attention, etc. she sounds like she hates it, but also likes it. There are cases of real victims growing an addiction to past pain. its definitely not everyone. it's like youre dating someone else, but keep rmemebering some happy moments of your horrible ex. I don't know if her boyfriends hurt her or distrust her or its her problem with being faithful. She's not going to read this anyway, but it's like everyone is doing it, so it's a norm and okay. She's not the only one facing these problems. Girls can become more old fashion and self aware of the problem from an outsider perspective when they're older especially when they're losing fame with surplus of competitions. You always see regretful girls trying to retaliate at the av industry or end up homeless working in soap parlor. Heck, just a while back there was a news article that compile a list of famous HK category 3 nude stars and former pageants that range from marrying rich to becoming a superstar like shuqi despite still receiving harassments from fans and real sexual harassment from directors that haunts her. some end up working at McDonald's and becoming a nun. Not everyone can have the top bargain like sora aoi.So, the very things that scarred her, it seems, are popular genres in the industry she ended up in.
I imagined some sick directors still have the same mindset, morality, and cultural background as the old school sexploitation film niche. In the past decade, it's very popular with even very pure vanilla studios and labels join in the r*** and molesting series involving public train, school girls, housewives, and milfs. Heck, there's even a a lot real life cases involving regular idols, av idols, or just regular school teens that happens to be influenced by fans watching av or vice versa for av nowadays replicating real life harassment cases. I know not everyone will commit the crime, but this genre does sell well. It's getting bigger than ever. Back in sora aoi days, you hardly see her peers and her doing anything too rough and crazy, but now girls after filming a few movies after their debut are subjected to film at least one r***, harassment, or similar title every other month. It's a confusing issues. I'm not going to preach, but it's these kind of things that scare foreigners to always go wtf Japan. Prude or not, sometimes is very weird. very heavy pedophile attractions like loli anime product, maid cafe, and More can be a fun joke in anime or game show and not definitely not very harmful especially for casually fans that are sane and meta aware and not try to be overly enthusiastic and awkward weeb Virgin or outright creepy old middle age man.
Despite all the bad news and cases happening with av, it's still going strong. Sometimes, the surplus of negativity, suspension of disbelief(goddesses/whores have no private lives and families), or just distrust them(discrimination). Didn't sakurai aya still trying to get the culprit apprehended, but the defendant argues its consent?