I'm afraid of God ._.
I recognize that fear. I believe in the "Wrath of God"; I have seen it, I have felt it, I have lived in it. Yet a good parent will also punish his children. He will do so out of love and for their welfare. Actions have consequences. This does not mean that one is bereft of His love. We are forgiven for our sins, just as the parent forgives the child. I find comfort and strength in that belief.